When Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck were together, they practically invented the concept of one-named celebrity couples: Bennifer, remember? J-Lo is now revealing that when they called off their engagement, it was her “first big heartbreak.”
In an interview with Maria Shriver that will air on NBC’s Today on November 3 and November 4, Jennifer talks about how she didn’t give herself any alone time after the split, which was probably a mistake.
Shriver says, “Right away when you broke up with Ben Affleck, Marc Anthony was there like 2 days later,” to which Jennifer responds, “Right, you’re absolutely right.”
“It was probably my first big heartbreak,” she explains. “And to have one of my best friends, who I’d known for years, who I actually love and did have chemistry with, come into my life and say, ‘I’m here’….What you need to know is, nobody can save you or heal you. Only you can do that for you.”
Jennifer also tells Shriver that for many years, she felt she didn’t deserve love, which she says was a result of her upbringing. “It’s how you feel as a child, you know? Being a middle child and kind of being invisible sometimes,” she says.
That sense of invisibility, though, helped make Jennifer the success she is today. “So what did I do? I overachieved,” she explains. “I was the one who ran track and I won medals every weekend. Or I was the one who would go on the show and steal the show. And that would give me confidence.”
“But there was a part of me that just wanted love, that felt like she wasn’t worthy of the love,” Jennifer adds.
Jennifer details all her relationships — in addition to Ben Affleck, she’s has three ex-husbands — in her new memoir, True Love. As for her relationship status now, the star, who split with her boyfriend Casper Smart earlier this year, tells Shriver, “I’m open to love, but right now, I think it’s better to just be on my own for a minute and learn more about myself.“
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